Okay, it has been a while since I wrote anything. I have really hit a mental wall this year. I am so thankful for all my friends who have there to keep me treking along. Between Amy cook, Angie Beebe, Katie Thompson, Jodi Brunson(not a runner), and otherrunners in the community everyone has helped pick me up. I have been struggling mentally in every race. I recently tried to defeat Ogden marathons course again and never had the goal to win (although you always think it would be nice) but mostly i wanted to have a good experience. I made a rookie mistake of not pacing myself but going off of my friend for the first 3 and even though I dropped back my pace was still to fast. I was hurting bad at 15 and struggled to 23, and made the decision to drop out. I felt like I had nothing to prove by finishing the distance and since I was far off of a good time and really walking parts of it by then I just wanted to pretend like it was a really bad dream.
I am so grateful to all those who sought me out after. For all the hugs and the tears and the words of encouragement. I have decided to stick with what I know best which is half marathons, and maybe I will do some 50 milers every once in a while. =) So here is to the start of new training, new confidence building (one race at a time), and to have fun again. I hope to see ya at Utah Valley Half Marathon!
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